He made your whole being. Oh tiny cluster of cells that came to be during this week in April one year ago. Without us even being aware, our Father in heaven was creating you. You were made from love and we already loved you even before we knew you existed. God is love and he loved you. In the twinkling of an eye you already had all the genes that would decide how you would look and who you would become. You were planned and wanted. Mummy and daddy never gave up hope that you would one day be conceived. You are our miracle. 

He formed each of you (knitted together) in mummy’s body. Being momo twins the splitting of the zygote was far later than in other twins so much so that you ended up in the same amniotic sac and had the same placenta. I prayed you would be twins. God chose me to carry such special baby girls. He created you and you soon grew in mummy’s tummy. You are each a bit of mummy and a bit of daddy. 

We praise God because he made you in an amazing and wonderful way. Being so unique and rare we had the privaledge of seeing you more than usual. Even inside mummy’s tummy you started to display different movements and kicks. You were so tiny and looked identical in shape yet we soon discovered you were already developing your own individual personalities. You loved to dance and being so close to each other you could hug each other and had the comfort of one another as sisters. You were never alone. When we met you oh how beautiful you were. Chloe you had many of daddy’s features and Grace you were more like mummy but you both were made in the image of God. 

What God has done is wonderful. Though we miss you and grieve the loss of not having you with us and not seeing our dreams fulfilled of watching you grow up here on earth, we trust that God is good and you are now in heaven with him. What he did to give you to us, to love and cherish, even for such a short while, leaves our hearts full to overflowing. Your lives have made such an impact on our lives and the lives of others. He made you to always be our firstborn daughters. This is wonderful and I know this very well.

He saw your bones being formed as you took shape in mummy’s body. Oh how I will never forget those images of seeing your bones in intricate detail on the scans especially at 20 weeks when we were taken on a skeletal journey looking at each of you to check you were ok anatomically. How amazing God had made you. You were perfect in every way. We could see your spine, your ribs, your skull, each finger each toe. It was just as though God was revealing just a glimpse of how he could see you. When he put you there together in the secret place he saw your bodies as they were formed.

All your days God planned for you were written in his book before any of them came to be.  God had a plan and a purpose for each of you and he also had a plan and purpose for mummy and daddy when he made you. He is outside of our time yet he cares about the times we felt excitement about being your parents and the many times since you left when we weep for you. Your names Chloe and Grace are in his book and are etched on his and our hearts. We take comfort to know you are with our maker. The days you were with us even before you had a chance to breathe or open your eyes and before this world would acknowledge you as being ‘viable’ were special to us and each one was meant to be. Even if we had known these days would come to an end at 24 weeks to the day we would not have changed a thing and would do it all again. Being pregnant and carrying you is my greatest memory of this life time. I will never forget these days and I will never stop loving you both. 

Until we meet again, Mummy xx 💗💗

 Based on Psalm 139