Mummy had been charting her cycle and knew she was late.

Never had I had 17 days post peak day before. This was the longest ever in over a year and a half of charting (the longest was 14 days). I had cramps like my usual was about to arrive but it didn’t!

I tried not to analyse or stress! and anyway I doubted I could be pregnant as in April I had done all the wrong things; stroked lambs, ate pate 4 days in a row, only got together with hubby once in our fertile week as he had a cold! and for the first time in a long while I had an alcoholic drink with Aunty M!

The Napro consultant said I needed to be on progesterone the moment I know I am pregnant (being 40 I would need this support to help prevent miscarriage). So I sent my charting lady a message and she advised I test the very next day if there was still no show. If i was i would need to contact the consultant straight away.

So, on 11th May on waking and knowing it still hadn’t arrived I made sure I didn’t go for a wee but held on and asked your Daddy to take me to Sainsbury’s to buy a test and test before I left for work.

At 7.10 am (desperate by this time to go for a wee) we got home and I ran upstairs and did a test.

Almost immediately I could see a blue line just like the control. I shouted downstairs to daddy ‘ I’M PREGNANT!’ though asked him to check the instructions whilst nervously shaking.

He checked them and there was no doubt that you were a reality!

I had to test again on the Sunday as we had two tests in the pack and i wanted to make sure i still was. That time the line was even stronger!

When I found out i was shocked, stressed as rushing for work, amazed, full of disbelief, grateful to God for his promises, excited, worried, happy, overwhelmed.

Daddy was sooo happy! We thanked God for you, our little blessing!!

Wow! Never been pregnant before – it took us 5 years!!

We told nanny and Grandpa on the phone at 7.30am. They were so happy and excited to be Grandparents. Aunty M (first time Aunty) cried when I told her on the way to work on a quiet tube journey. Aunty Bom Bom (first time Aunty) was in shock. Grandma fell to her knees in prayer (first time Grandma). Grandad over the moon too (first time Grandad).

Our small groups of friends who have been praying with us for years were so pleased and supportive.

Hopes:

• the pregnancy lasts full term and I get to love you forever
• you are healthy
• I will soon be a mum
• to have twins
• to have enough money to support us

Worries:

• I hadn’t eaten well or had enough folic acid
• I had drunk an alcoholic drink
• It wouldn’t be real or last
• would we have enough money?

You would be due January 13th at 40 weeks. Last period 10th April.