This morning 2 years ago I was induced and faced the emotional and physical pain of giving birth to my beautiful twin girls Chloe and Grace.

I was heartbroken, terrified and was still praying for a miracle that the doctors had been wrong when they had told me just a few days before that they could find no heart beats. People say I was brave but I only did what any mother would do.

Tomorrow will be their birthday. How has it been 2 years? It marks the day we met them but every day is just the same.

We live our lives in what feels like a parallel world where our babies didn’t live but very aware of how our lives could have been. I would have been posting sweet photos of them most likely and dressing them in butterfly themed dresses.

I recently bought the soft toy bunnies that I knew they would love. They don’t get to cuddle the bunnies but I certainly do and think of them when I do. My life may not have Chloe and Grace in it but my heart is still full of love for them. Their lives mattered and still matter today and for always 💗💗