It’s not easy living the life of a mother without my babies here to physically be a mother to. Sending so much love to all the mothers out there today who remain childless or who having children look across the room and there should be another child there but they died too soon. It doesn’t matter how long you carried your baby, whether you gave birth to them, saw them or felt them kick. For those who only knew of a cluster of cells, that was your baby and you are still their mother!!🌸

Though each day my heart aches as I know Chloe and Grace are not here and neither are the 3 embryos we once had, I am their mother still …My life so often feels empty without them yet it also feels full because of my love for them.

My mother heart aches to see and hold my two girls again. I only got to hold them after they were born sleeping. I am their mother and I mother them from afar just by the way I live my life and the choices I now make. I try to be everything that I can be and aim to be the best I can be. To love others and care for others as a mother does which is a true gift to embrace. To enourage and see the good in others. To see the beauty in life as I think of my two beautiful girls who would now be full of giggles at 17 months. I feel broken and saddened at their absence yet through the cracks comes strength and joy and hope. I cherish life and continue to be reminded of their lives in the sweet pinks of flowers and when I hear the sounds of song birds in the trees, when I see little girls playing or chatting to their mummies or daddies. I am so happy to be their Mum today and always. 💖💖 xxxx